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Friday, September 12, 2008
Hey, I know. I havent been blogging since many many weeks ago. Seriously, I've been so busy preparing for Promos that I'm kinda very stressed over it. Everything seems to be fine and going, but promos are in ten days time? Being a pessimist, what if i fail? What if I get retained? What if i can't continue with my 4H2? What if... There's so many what ifs in my brain everyday that I somehow find it difficult to continue at this pace. Somehow, I'm suffering from insomnia. Some people of course say eh, good thing. Got more time to study cos' you don't need to sleep. It's not I don't need. It's just that everytime I wanna sleep at night, my brain tells me I've got so much to do. I can't get to sleep unless I lie in bed for 2 hours. For those that have been there for me(: I thank you alot. Esp the F3 and Mr Ho. I continued doing exercises before I sleep, going back to my abs training and somehow, I can sleep earlier at least. (duh, cos it's tiring.) Haha.
I'm so looking forward to after promos cos there will be so much more time for me and myself (: Haha, I can start my online busiess again, bringing in some cash to get me through the next year(: Haha
Yes, that's all for now, cos' I'm tired.
Wish me luck(: Love, bel
m e s m e r i s e d 4:41 AM
Wednesday, September 3, 2008
Yes, it's been a long time since the last update.
Hey, I've been so freaking busy with everything. Example, PW and Promos preparation. It's all making me so stressed and damn tired out. I kinda hate JC life. I mean yes, people in Poly might say that they are suffering the same fate. But I won't know unless I'm in it. And likewise they won't know unless they are in my position too. Every day's time table is so freaking pack. With HC stuff and functions. thank God for now they all ended. For now that is. Life is so stressful, seriously life is a total no joke thing. It's like 20days more to my Promos and yet well, I'm not prepared at all. Oh my, I'm freaking out again. Bio, Chem, Maths and Econs. How to cope with all 4 h2s, and to get all Passes? I don't wanna drop any H2. I'm freaking stressed. What if i can't do it? What if i study damn hard and yet I still fail? WHAT IF i get retained or even worse, kicked out of TJC! ARGH>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
Now I'm suffocating. I've gotta rush PW stuff due today. Sigh. And then, more to study. CHEMISTRY- all the shitty organic chem.
Seriously, chemistry is a quite easy subject cos' it's very straightforward. But I'm kinda afraid of chem. I'm rejecting chemistry in my life now. Damn ironic. Easy yet I fear it.
You know what, I have enough. I need to do something about my life now. Pick it up from here or continue dropping down into the stupid mud. No! I don't want any mud on me, I don't want to be stuck down under the mud. I want to be on top. On the stage, gleaming with happiness. Not sobbing and crying over spilled milk! I've gotta do something. Somebody help me! ):
Mrs Lim left already on Monday, we all kinda couldn't hold back our tears. Lihui started crying and so did I. The guys didn't cry but I could feel how much they missed her even with the very moment she stopped teaching us. (: They were a little teary but didn't let people see their weak side. Haha. I miss Mrs Lim already, hope she's doing well there in California. And hope she gets to enjoy herself and enjoy her so long after honeymoon she didn't manage to take when she first got married(: Missing you Mrs Lim, you were always so caring and kind. Take care!
And happy pregnancy ( not that your pregnant) Haha
GOTTA GO DO SOMETHING MORE ABOUT MY DAMNED LIFE(:
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m e s m e r i s e d 5:25 AM
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