feminism

2008-09-12T04:41:00.000-07:00

Hey, I know. I havent been blogging since many many weeks ago. Seriously, I've been so busy preparing for Promos that I'm kinda very stressed over it. Everything seems to be fine and going, but promos are in ten days time? Being a pessimist, what if i fail? What if I get retained? What if i can't continue with my 4H2? What if... There's so many what ifs in my brain everyday that I somehow find it difficult to continue at this pace. Somehow, I'm suffering from insomnia. Some people of course say eh, good thing. Got more time to study cos' you don't need to sleep. It's not I don't need. It's just that everytime I wanna sleep at night, my brain tells me I've got so much to do. I can't get to sleep unless I lie in bed for 2 hours. For those that have been there for me(: I thank you alot. Esp the F3 and Mr Ho. I continued doing exercises before I sleep, going back to my abs training and somehow, I can sleep earlier at least. (duh, cos it's tiring.) Haha.
I'm so looking forward to after promos cos there will be so much more time for me and myself (: Haha, I can start my online busiess again, bringing in some cash to get me through the next year(: Haha

Yes, that's all for now, cos' I'm tired.
Wish me luck(: Love, bel

Yes, it's been a long time since the last update.

2008-09-03T05:25:00.001-07:00

Hey, I've been so freaking busy with everything. Example, PW and Promos preparation. It's all making me so stressed and damn tired out. I kinda hate JC life. I mean yes, people in Poly might say that they are suffering the same fate. But I won't know unless I'm in it. And likewise they won't know unless they are in my position too. Every day's time table is so freaking pack. With HC stuff and functions. thank God for now they all ended. For now that is. Life is so stressful, seriously life is a total no joke thing. It's like 20days more to my Promos and yet well, I'm not prepared at all. Oh my, I'm freaking out again. Bio, Chem, Maths and Econs. How to cope with all 4 h2s, and to get all Passes? I don't wanna drop any H2. I'm freaking stressed. What if i can't do it? What if i study damn hard and yet I still fail? WHAT IF i get retained or even worse, kicked out of TJC! ARGH>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>

Now I'm suffocating. I've gotta rush PW stuff due today. Sigh. And then, more to study. CHEMISTRY- all the shitty organic chem.
Seriously, chemistry is a quite easy subject cos' it's very straightforward. But I'm kinda afraid of chem. I'm rejecting chemistry in my life now. Damn ironic. Easy yet I fear it.
You know what, I have enough. I need to do something about my life now. Pick it up from here or continue dropping down into the stupid mud. No! I don't want any mud on me, I don't want to be stuck down under the mud. I want to be on top. On the stage, gleaming with happiness. Not sobbing and crying over spilled milk! I've gotta do something. Somebody help me! ):

Mrs Lim left already on Monday, we all kinda couldn't hold back our tears. Lihui started crying and so did I. The guys didn't cry but I could feel how much they missed her even with the very moment she stopped teaching us. (: They were a little teary but didn't let people see their weak side. Haha. I miss Mrs Lim already, hope she's doing well there in California. And hope she gets to enjoy herself and enjoy her so long after honeymoon she didn't manage to take when she first got married(: Missing you Mrs Lim, you were always so caring and kind. Take care!
And happy pregnancy ( not that your pregnant) Haha

GOTTA GO DO SOMETHING MORE ABOUT MY DAMNED LIFE(:
bb

Freak pissed.

2008-08-14T05:43:00.000-07:00

Mum's like nagging at me on and on....
I'm talking to Mr Ho and he told me to go get a filter to filter the contents la. I said to ask him to make one for me, but he say individual spectrum different. Haha. Then I asked him for the strongest and he said no stock. What a joke man! (:
Sometimes I really wonder why I have such parents. Parents who don't give a damn about some things and give too much a damn about others. For example if I did well especially in my O's, she didn't freaking say anything. And when she does say something, she says I have to do better cos my sister did quite ok. So what? Comparing me? And saying things like that? What parents?! Plus she is so freaking calculative that she wants to collect back all the money she spent on me when I grow up next time. Please la, when I give birth and have my own children I will have to spend loads of money on them too. And I will then ask them for money is it? It's a cycle, ok!?!

GTG bb

2008-08-13T04:02:00.000-07:00

Heyhey. I'm kinda irritated by the fact that people are asking me whether I smoke cos' my nic is "I'm a smoking chimney". I didn't smoke ok. Maybe thought of it only. So don't panic you guys! (:
Ok, today I went to see my normal doctor thing. And freak man. I spent like 2-3 hours at the hospital. What the hell la. I am already damn tired and somemore I have to wait that long. So I complained to the woman and yelled at her. Nah, maybe not yell. Haha. (: And yes, I'm suffering from a bad headache now. And I'm in a bloody bad mood at this very moment. Head feels spinny and yeah. Hope I don't faint like the girl who did today. Poor thing!

And yes, tomorrow there is botak man's test. My my, confirm fail and he will have the entertainment of his life- scolding me ):

Gotta go, wanna catch a little nap before I do my work and study.
Ciao!(:

Happy happy happy

2008-08-12T07:25:00.001-07:00

House function was a blast today! Woohoo! (: And i'm damn tired now, so nights! LOL

(:

It's finally over.

2008-08-11T20:31:00.000-07:00

I'm having maths lesson now. Didn't do well for maths test. A single digit. Loads of careless stupid mistake. But well, expected cos I'm careless and stupid too.

Looking at Charlene's blog kinda dampened my mood. Haven't been in a happy mood today. Today totally was emoing and moody. The weather kinda bad also. ( realised it's raining alr). No sunshine and no smiles in the sky. Looking at the back of his head makes me feel very sad. Even the back of his head. That moment I imagined his body next to mine. The hard chest muscles and packs under that tight uniform. ( I'm not a pervert, i just miss him too badly. Yes, he was the best of my life. The guy that was so perfect.
If perfect then why is it so that we can't walk this journey together anymore?

I have to get over him. I have to live my life anew, for myself and not for him. I have to study for myself, I have to work towards a scholarship to UK not because he is going there too. I just need to. Will you be there in UK? Will we have rekindled love? Haha. That's all too far and my heart aches to even think about that.
You don't seem to miss my presence. You don't seem to want me there. You seem so fine, like the first time I met you. So well, since you're doing fine. I should be happy. Loving you was the best thing that happened to me this year. And I can only thank you for letting me love you even though it was just a short 6 months.

I'm going clubbing on the 31st after Nike Human Race. I know it's dumb when I'm tired. But I need to numb myself. With the people around me. Though many are serious jerks and well even sluts I will meet that day. But I want to be them for the day. To not worry and get high. Only by then I can feel numb. I can numb the senses of pain and unhappiness and even the unwillingness to let go. I'm gonna party, drink, smoke and club. No one can stop me.
I need this ironically to feel that I'm alive. So yeah, just once, let me become someone I am but yet was left in the hiding. I don't wanna be that stupid good girl, cos' I'm not. So don't stop me, don't you dare.

loads to rant, but decide not to.

2008-08-09T22:28:00.000-07:00

Hey, I had this really weird dream. Felt very sad, and really painful in my heart as I remembered. It was about me losing my BF. But well, that didn't happen cos' Matthew came back alive from his race.
Anyhow, I was trying to do biology. As in read the notes and maybe make some notes on my own. But somehow right, I just can't settle down. Like as though my butt has durian spikes. Sigh ): So yeah, finally managed to spend an hour on Genetics of Viruses. Hard work believe me. Though it was kinda easy to grasp the content. Not like organization and control of eukaryotic or prokaryotic genome. That's real tough. Super, the ultimate! So here I am, taking my well deserved half an hour break.
I spent the morning watching gymnastics Olympics on Channel 5. OMG, for the guys' team yesterday I totally support Italy. But for the girls' team today, I totally think Romania rocks! (: The girls are so pretty, elegant and so so good at it. There were of course mistakes, disappointment and tears. But well, the girls handled it quite well I guess. Seriously, China's gymnasts are superb. Though young like maybe 10? They are like super uper good, and are highest in ranking currently. There was this girl, He Ke Xin I guess, she was so good. But she slipped off the bar. Like WTH, everything was super uper perfect you know. But well, she got quite high points though she fell. Cos' she really deserved it. The poise, the speed, the actions and even the landing. No words can describe that fantastic show she put on for the audience. Man, how I wished I could have learnt gymnasts from the start ): Well, now I'm just too old and fat.
And yes, talking about fat. I've decided to start training up for Nike Human Race. Yes, I'm not running but well. At least i must be able to walk the whole thing through la. Or else so paisei. Haha. (: Today's weather was hell. Wanted to go Sentosa, but firstly no one's interested. And secondly, it rained heavily. Sigh, my wishes are always not fulfilled, but rather gone against by God' will. Why?! (Sorry, a little too drama here)

AND(!) I actually went for a family dinner at a 7th month celebration thing. OMG, seriously the food is marvellous. The suckling pig, and even the cold dish. It's wonderful. Uncle says next year there will still be such an event with the same company food. Woohoo!
But again, more reasons to exercise now, cos' I ate loads yesterday. Gonna run later (: And climb some stairs. Get this lazy bod to work it out (:

Anyway gotta go, making use of my time wisely before I'm back at viruses. Haha. Mugging period/ Intensive starts now! (:

2008-08-09T03:14:00.000-07:00

heyhey, cam whored a little with my camera. haha.
camwhoring season i guess(:
anyway happy cos im gonna have a super big dinner with my whole family. aunties and uncles and cousins included. (:
loves!

Lala, cam whored w Joce! :D

2008-08-07T04:14:00.001-07:00

heyhey,
here are some photos today (: cam whored with Joce in school, before econs lessons with Botak! (:

Whos this handsome guy? :D
guess guess guess(:
hope he doesnt see his photo here. not sure whether he will murder me.

Love you darling(:

I'm sick again ):

2008-08-06T00:05:00.000-07:00

I'm sick and resting at home again. I feel so lousy like I'm some girl who is so weak and vulnerable to viruses especially. No! I'm not that kinda girl, just have the time of my month. And this month's cramps are worse than ever. OMG! Haha, but well I took panadol to stop the pain. Didn't want to cos' well, I might be dependent on the drug from this day on... But the pain was continuous, never ending. Argh! So I had to eat 2 panadol pills. Before I faint from the extreme pain like last time. Haha.
Anyway, I haven't been doing anything much. And I actually skipped Biology Test. I'm not happy ok? Though some might think I should be. But I studied for it, so I wanna sit for it and well, know how bad/ well I faired. There is gonna be no school on friday and next monday. Hurray for that. Now I can finally catch some sleep. Hmm, maybe not. Cos' my work is piling up, and exams are coming! JC life is so freaking shit can. Wake up early go school and mug mug mug. Come back at night and study study study. Where's my life?! ):

And yes, thanks to National Day, we have one and a half more day off! Haha. I remembered Mrs Velma Ang telling us one student actually said, "I love Singapore because of that!" Haha. Though true that National Day brought us one more day of holiday, but well there's loads of other reasons why we should love Singapore. I just realised that we've always taken the security of Singapore for granted. Don't you think you feel safe here? Though yes, Mas Selamat is still out not found. But well, that guy is gonna get caught someday I guess. By someone and somehow. I'm actually impressed that there are people willing to quit their jobs to search for that guy. 3 people in exact are doing such a thing. How is it possible that they will find him when people like the Armed Forces dudes have already combed every part of Singapore. Hmm, someone definitely helped him out. Definitely. I'm so surprised when I heard that there was a JI terrorist from Singapore. OMG! What kinda Singaporean is that. I hope he isn't going or planning to terrorise Singapore. If not he will so get karma. It's your own country you shit ass. ):

Back to National Day, though I've always wanted to go overseas to live and study, but well, one thing I can promise is that I will come back to Singapore. Singapore is the place where I grew up in. My motherland. So safe and warm like a mother's arms. So protective my mother land is. (: Thus, I will make sure, my talent and skills are not donated to other countries, but rather kept for the benefit of my darling motherland. (:
So to all those who say you dislike your own country, shame on you. I know of one from my class. That day when she said that I felt sorry for her, and yet angry too. She hasn't learn to treasure or cherish the stability and prosperity of our country. What if you are born in countries like Malaysia, with political unstability. In thailand, with strikes and everything. In China, where the Sichuan incident happened. What if, you won't in these protective arms. Would you still be here? Enjoying the view, the fresh air, the fine education and even the stability and security. Think about that.
If you have unchanged views. Shame on you then. You're the ultimate case, no hope of ever changing your view of Singapore..

Here's wishing Singapore an early early happy 43rd bday in case I don't come online for the next few days.

And yes! Olympics is starting this friday. WOOHOO! TV will from that day be my ultimate stress buster(:

loads of love
clarabel(:

Complaints, complaints, complaints.

2008-08-05T07:17:00.000-07:00

Hey, today has been a super eventful day. With of course pissing off moments.
1. Eclub duty again! (with Oliver somemore)
He didn't do anything can, was like so freaking busy with his own homework. Mugger la. Leave me to attend to customers and thus, i'm pissed. But i sold 6 socks(: Monday i also sold 6 socks on my own. Maybe during the public holidays I should go and try being a promoter. Haha(:
2. Taiwan exchange thing. The mass dance and cheering session was supposed to be at 3pm. But somehow the blur and dumb teacher in charge didn't tell us that there was a change of plans. I even skipped biology tutorial just for it. And tomorrow I have biology test on what the teacher went through today. Freak shit. Taiwan students came in at like 4 plus, then it lasted till 5. They won't very cooperative but the girls were real sweet. They were sincere about learning la, that's the difference.

After so, I went home. Cabbed home with Nic, the guy with spoilt hand and leg. That's what he said. Spoilt! Haha. Bought dinner with him downstairs. Sweet guy, waited for him till I got my food la.

3. EoM due tomorrow.Just finished it though. And now I havent' have time for biology test revision. I swear, PW is so freaking a waste of everyone's brain power/juice and time man.

Ok, I gotta go though have loads to rant. Sure there will be another ranting session too cos' there's 2 tests on thursday and I haven't studied for it yet. I'm so dead!

(Mum didn't want to meet Mr. Aziz. Haha (: )

Busy day(:

2008-08-03T19:28:00.000-07:00

I'm doing the useless pushcart duty now, but cursing and swearing at the same time cos' Daphne isn't here to do the duty with me. It's like if I totally slack and not open the pushcart I guess it will just remain close. Matt's sitting next to me, doing his work. There's music here cos' some guys are playing. Well, great atmosphere. But just not a romantic time or place.

Today's gonna be quite a screwed up day for me. HC meeting plus grocery shopping for house function that's on next tuesday. Tired is not the word. Maybe exhausted (:

So I will keep it short and sweet. (:

I just pushed Matt's head and somehow I feel happy. haha, a sadist I know.

Ciao!

There's so much to do! ):

2008-08-03T06:24:00.001-07:00

Hey, there's been s much to do, and yet I didn't spend my weekends wisely. What the hell is wrong with me? ): I've been so caught up with work and HC function. Plus now I'm supposed to teach the foreign students mass dance and house cheers, argh! OMG, I just finish my GP essay on " Are the poor an inevitable feature in society?". Though I know roughly what it means and everything like I can debate these question but somehow I can't pen it down. So infuriating. Plus now I'm looking at my schedule for next week and man, it's quite screwed up.

Monday (tmrw): Doctor's appt as usual, HC meeting at 5.30pm
*it's with cheryl as told by bird, but I'm wondering Cheryl Lwin or Cheryl Chew. Well, Nevermind bout' that. (And if I have time, I think I will sit in for maths remedial(: )

Tuesday: Teach Taiwan exchange student mass dance- speedy and house cheers. Released at 2.30pm (yeah!) But the cheer and dance session till late?! (boo!) Haha.

Wednesay: Biology test- Viruses, bacteria and organization of eukaryotic genome. (Sounds tough and cheem? You bet!)

Thursday: Maths test, Chem test
Maths- T18, 19, 20, 23 and elearning. freak shit, no way! (no way i'm gonna pass)
Chem- Reaction kinetics (argh!) and gas laws (boo.)

Friday- hmm... Should be busy with HC stuff again and well, national day celebration half day! (yeap!) (:

*Nevermind. It's gonna be a long weekend this week. No full day school on friday, and also no school on monday!

PS: I seriously can't wait to watch the Olympics on TV everyday. I wanna see the Gymnastics the most. So elegant and beautiful. Oh yes, and here's wishing all Singapore Team the best! Go singapore (:
And of cos' a happy national day (though early) to all (:

loveydovey,
bel(:

I'm down. Surrendered!

2008-07-31T19:16:00.000-07:00

Hey, it's 10.17 am in the morning and I'm stuck at home cos' my body just broke down this morning. Actually yesterday night there were already signs of me becoming sick already. But well, I didn't care much. Now see what happens... I'm so tired from school everyday. JC life is no fun. It's like I come home from school at night around dinner time. Sometimes, even later. And the next morning I have to wake up at 5 am. Plus the amount of homework I have to do. And I even have to squeeze (trying now) some time out for extra revision cos' promos are so freaking near already. I don't wanna be retained. And I dont wanna drop a H2 core subject. Argh!!!

From here: I'm looking for maths tuition. Anyone that has teachers that are good and well nice, not like some teacher, can sms, tag or email me(:

Thanks peeps!

I haven't been blogging.

2008-07-30T03:53:00.000-07:00

Yes yes, i know i haven't been blogging cos' i have been kinda busy with alot of stuff. The thing about me and Matt has already cleared up and we celebrated our 5th month annviersary yesterday. (: Haha. And well, today was a bad day. Woke up so freaking late at 7.30am. Rushed to school and was nearly late, but in another way lucky cos' the moment i reach the bus stop, the bus came(: Hehe. Anyway, another bad thing was when i boarded the bus, only then did i realise i didn't bring my tie! SHIT! Today's tie day. And yes, was lucky again. Didn't get caught by any teacher or even Mr Tong. Another bad thing, i didn't receive any relay about bringing my PI, therefore, i didn't hand in my part for PW> arghh... ):

Matt didn't come to school today cos' he is sick. But he didn't tell me. So was kinda worried about him. And well, today i'm feeling so full went to have lunch with my classmates, skipped contact time cos' i went to see my doctor. We had lunch with almost the whole class (Lavina, Annette, Shing Juan, Van, Lihui, Joce, Shawn, Mrs Velma Ang and me!) Mr Goh wanted to tag along, but when he saw it was so far, he kinda backed out. Haha.
And to annette, i hope your leg's better(:

Anyway I think I gonna catch 30 winks now. I'm feeling so exhausted and well, a little stressed out. My friend Nixon knows why. Haha. (all thanks to him reminding about promos being so near and everything.) Stupid la you...

Haha. I skipped dinner, though i know it's not good, but i'm feeling bloated. Kinda well, glad. Maybe this way I can lose some weight, like a kg. So i will be a 47/48. Further away from that no. 50. Haha. (:

That's all!
Tata...

This is an upset post.

2008-07-28T04:36:00.000-07:00

Hey people, if you don't wanna listen to rants. Don't read this. i'm warning you already.
I'm so pissed off today, don't know whether is the lack of sleep or just well maybe pms-ing. I hated Mrs Chng, she told us off today about not doing her homework. I forgot well on my part. And only 5 people in the class did the work so well, yeah, she erupted like a volcano. I was pissed cos' she was so naggy and so irritating. And the econs lecturer also, plainly knowing not enough time to teach already, yet continued calling names. Or stopping to ask all the latecomers to account for themselves. Plus the piling homework, tomorrow's bio mock spa, next week got like 3 test plus my house function that i practically can't skip. I'm exhausted.

Plus, well, on the private side, someone is making my life difficult. I'm done and through with it already. I had enough of this nonsense. I won't believe in anything that anyone says already. Also the 29th doesn't mean anything to me anymore. It's all just game over. And to that person- You will regret it, for life. I've been so patient today, meeting you in the morning, telling you not to do whatsoever. Caring for even what you eat, telling you to go home early to rest if you can. Yet well, you decided that you had the right to say things like 'because I'm sick". Well, that's bloody well not a good excuse you shit. Not a good one at all. Maybe if you write on a piece of paer saying "I'm mute." Yeah well, maybe that will work. So get your sorry ass out of my life. Cos' my life is much more peaceful and serene without all the shit you always give. Rawr, you sucker. (:

Going on to better things, Vanvan, Joce, Shawn and me, went to Taipan condo to have Taipan. It was not bad. Well, it was comfy and nice. And the food was like every day dinner standard. Haha, maybe my mum just cooks well. (: Anyway thats all for now. I've gotta rush GP homework: 2 summary and 1 AQ. And yes, bio mock spa (must memorise, memorise, memorise!) Haha.

I'm fine my dear friends.
I will be.
(And Lihui if you see this, I'm joining you in the club. Don't be sad anymore. You have me now)

Love, bel(:

2008-07-23T22:21:00.001-07:00

I've decided to add photos to make my blog more lively! (: haha. so here goes, enjoy! :D

These photos are of the class with our biology teachers, Mrs Lena Lim and Mrs Velma Ang.
Mrs Lim is leaving like you probably already know, and the class id definitely gonna miss her(:

The famous F4 and our creator Jermain. Haha.
Family portrait! (: during GP lesson. With permission of course(:

Hey im kinda feeling down

2008-07-23T21:02:00.000-07:00

Hey, I'm kinda emo now, actually not because of things happening around me, rather because of a blog I just visited. Remember the case where a soldier died while overseas? Out of unknown reasons though, my heart ached when I read the blog of his gf. Her reminiscing the past and the everything he does. It kinda made me think to myself that I should cherish the wonderful times I have with Matthew. We might have our many problems, but I shouldn't take him for granted. Cos' one day, just one day, when it is the end of the world, or when we leave each other, i might not have told him my many thanks and my feelings. To my friends out there too that stood by my side, I guess I have to thank you people for accompanying me through the good times and the bad times. For teaching me life's lessons, for loving me and being patient with me. To my most adorable bf, Matt, I wish we can spend the rest of our life with each other, as happily as yesterdays and even today. I wish that all the people around us can be showered by that same love. To those who have lost your love ones, don't be sad(: Tomorrow is always a better day. Live life for those who have passed on. Living your life to the fullest is one way to continue the life journey of those who couldn't. And always remember, your loved ones might be gone. But they will forever live in that heart of yours. (:

the inspirational blog that I visited: memyselfmine.blogspot.com

signing off...

I've got the photos(:

2008-07-23T03:40:00.000-07:00

Hey people from 22/08 or Beta HC, if you would like to have the photos you people camwhored in, just talk to me on msn, and i'll send it over(:
TATA-
love bel(:

WOW!

2008-07-22T12:12:00.000-07:00

It's already 3.14 am in the morning, and I'm finally going to sleep! (: I haven't finish maths, just left one more part. Gonna do it tomorrow(: Hopefully. Ciao

Nights!

PS: ELEARNING SUCKS!!!

2008-07-22T11:32:00.000-07:00

It's already 2.33 am in the morning and I'm still awake. I'm not having fun, but instead I'm doing Mathematics. Can you believe it? Cos' I wanna finish the stupid elearning for maths by today. So i can do the rest tomorrow slowly. Argh! The woman's / teacher's voice is so horrid. Mr wong's voice is so much more melodious man. Haha. Jermain went to sleep already. He finished the whole maths thing. He was nice enough to give me the answers. But I doubt I will fill them in without trying(: I promise I wont, I hope. There's not many people online now. Normal la, people have to go to school what, what was I thinking?

Today's HC meeting at Bird's house was quite productive seh. Haha. Like we managed to talk about the whole year's upcoming events. And yes, with that comes more stuff to do cos' of the timeline we have to pass up plus the proposal. I'm incharge of cheerleading competition. It's so exciting and I'm really looking forward to it. Beta got 2nd this year, 1st the year before. I had better make sure we will get 1st again next year and get back the title man. Hmmm, anyway Matthew came back from Msia already. I was so happy to see him as he was to see me of course. And he bought me loads of presents which cannot be told here. Haha, ain't I secretive. Wanna know, maybe I'll tell you if you ask. Anyway, will upload the photos only if i find that darned cable. Ok, gotta go do more maths already. EWW>>>>

love, clarebear(:

E-learning is GAY! (:

2008-07-20T21:43:00.000-07:00

Today is the start of the e-learning week, and believe me it's so freaking gay. The econs lecturer is like speaking while the slides are running. Kinda cool actually but so freaky. Haha. Can't imagine her trying to sit down and actually record her voice. Cute(: Anyway, I have came up with a checklist for all the subjects, and mind you, the work pile is piling damn high! That means no time for me to slack or to just stone.
My place is kinda gloomy now, looks like it's gonna rain soon. A heavy downpour i think. But thing is, I have to go back to school for PW meeting. Like WTH la. But well, I'm in a fairly good mood cos I'm talking to Matthew online while he is back in Msia. Anyway gotta go now. Update more later(:

2008-07-20T00:22:00.000-07:00

Heyhey, continued version of everything. Mrs Lena Lim, my biology teacher is leaving us for California soon. It's so saddening, and seriously speaking I was tearing when she came into the class. We kinda tricked her and Mrs Velma Ang actually help(: Haha so cool. But shawn has something against V ang, i wonder why. ):

Anyway, Matthew and I are so separated. He is in Msia now, and wont be back till Wed i think. And worse still, I will be busy with my HC meeting on Wed at Bird's house, then will rush down to school for PW meeting. Yes, I'm gonna curse at PW somemore. Idiots in the MOE system. Creating such a darn useless subject that racks all of the students' brains somemore. Isn't a 4H2 plus GP combination suffocating already? Plus my group is like so weird. Everyone's at a different frequency, we can't communicate even. Argh!!

Enough about school, I wanted to go Sentosa to tan, Titan asked me to go, but well, kinda backed out last minute and decided to stay infront of the computer and just well, stone. And yeah! I can't wait for the Nike Human Race, decided to join that competition or whatever you call that. Cos' well, the goodie bags quite cool(:

And yes! I;m having food poisoning, staying at home now. Sigh. Don't know, it could be the Fish and chips from Fish and Co. or the brownies from breeks. Talking about food, i think i'm getting kinda fat. I wanna tone up. Maybe i should go planet fitness next week since school's out for me(: haha. just maybe...

loads of love,
bel(:

Yeah, finally a new and pretty blog(:

2008-07-18T08:12:00.000-07:00

Hey, this is like my new pretty blog that Desmond just arranged for me(:
I'm so freaking happy and glad that I have such a smart friend! Haha. Anyways, I'm kinda very stressed up and overwhelmed by the current school workload. Like the amount of assignments I have to do. Next week is e-learning week. Suppose to be making things better, but it's not. We have to report at the same time, just that t'll be at home infront of the computer. Instead of grumpy teachers. Haha. But well, TJC have really made me feel at home and I admit, I love my school now. To bits and pieces, haha.

Tomorrow I have an appointment at CGH as usual. Kinda getting the hang of the idea of having therapy twice every two weeks. Yes, you might think what am I suffering from. For those who know, good for you(: For the rest, well... Find it out yourself. Haha. I saw Mr. Ho today in school, no actually it was during lunch. He just popped down at our table. I screamed and nearly choke on the famous Hill Street Char Kway Teow. Jocelyn was so slow, didn't even know he is there until like a minute later. Haha, blur sotong. Lihui thought I saw some rodent or even a ghost. Haha. But we saw that she was happy Mr. Ho was there. Actually the person closest to Mr Ho would probably be Lihui. And well, being envious of that, I can't do anything. Haha. And yes, my project work is SCREWED! (look at those capital letters!) Argh! Why does MOE need to put PW in the syllabus? isn't tormenting us with stupid biology un-understandable facts already enough?! Plus which idiot with that fantastic brain came up with the "Teach less learn more"? Might as well, "Don't teach, and be a genius". Haha. Well, that won't work, and neither the TLLM man! I haven't been dancing in a thousand million years, and I can say I miss dancing so much. I'm gonna put on weight and turn rusty if by the end of this year I don't do something about it.

Today was actually a very eventful day. We had PE but as usual I'm excused from PE. No, I'm not some alien that can't go under the sun. I guess I just chose to get that long-term MC from my doctor. But anyway, many classes didn't go for PE in the first place, cos' it was PFT for most of the classes, but not my class. Saw very impressing stunts like a guy running like as though he was a plane taking off. It was not bad an attempt, cos' he did speed up cos' of that. An yes, the top girl was a pro, coming in at 9minutes. It's practically equivalent to guys' standard. Debbie was like hell nuts(: but of course, impressive. She ran the 2.4 twice! First, with the guys group coming in top few, and second with the girls. She can really run! Thank God she's in BETA, cos' she will definitely do us proud. (: Ok, nothing much to say except for the fact I'm damn screwed cos' promos are in 9 weeks time and there's so much to do, including that stupid PW shit! I really need to pull up my socks, and make them into stocking somehow. Haha. Thats all for now, more of everything tomorrow(:

Ciao.